I feel like I’ve been walking under water this week and, as a result, I’ve been far from the best version of myself. With the events of the past few days in Paris and Beirut, and the resulting refugee backlash, it’s hard to feel like I have a right to be anything but grateful for all that I have. Which begs the question: how do you adjust to or accept the reality of the world we’re faced with without losing sight of yourself?
This is something I talk about quite a bit with a good friend of mine, as we both work at a homeless shelter and, as such, we are constantly meeting new people who are facing hardships we can only ever imagine. I hear stories everyday that both horrify and inspire me from people who are often fighting to have their most basic needs met. With that said, it can be hard to reconcile how grateful I am for what I have, with how overwhelmed or sad I can feel with things in my own life. It’s this weird cyclical thing: sadness for the state of things beyond my control being fed by a self-centered feeling of being utterly ineffectual and compounded by a guilt that I’m not mary-freaking-sunshine ninety percent of the time. Continue reading →
Like so many around the world tonight, I’ve been glued to reports from Paris, gripped by the horrific events unfolding there. Just a few short weeks ago we were sitting on that very canal near where so many innocent lives were lost, and it’s hard to reconcile the peaceful quiet of that day with the carnage being reported on the news. It’s almost impossible to imagine these atrocities happening in such a beautiful city.
Right now the world is in shock. And I’m afraid it’s only a matter of time before that shock gives way to hate and anger. Though both are justified, it is not what I want to feel right now. I want to remember that, despite the terrible events of today, and those that are sure to follow, there is still so much good in the world. And just so we don’t forget that, here is a little proof…